Its not the best photo,

but these days when Lucy so much as suspects we're going to take a photo of her she heads for the hills. I'm sure she thinks we all have nothing better to do than try and get that ever elusive "great" photo. Right now I'm just grateful to have someone to take photos of.

I'm slowly recovering. I can talk about it, talking helps me. I can handle being around my pregnant friend at work. Yet i struggle to be around other pregnant people. My close friend Bec, we were 10 weeks apart and so excited to be pregnant together. It's harder to handle than i expected. I keep measuring her pregnancy on where i should have been. That's hard.

It's Vanessa's baby shower today. I've elected not to attend. I know she will understand why, and I'll get her a present and visit her in the hospital after she has the baby, but right now, I'm now willing to fall apart in front of a room full of people i work with .That's not something i need.

Or am ready to accept.