It never works that well for me though That little space. Maybe I've filled mine up. But i have regrets.
Today i learned that i actually have the capacity to hate. I never in my life have hated. I've been through a lot, I've hurt a lot, cried a lot and messed up a lot. But I've never before had the will to hate. And it stems from those regrets.
I guess the subconscious is never as far away as we want it to be.
I have so much going on in my life at the moment. My heart is literally broken in two. I don't know how much more i can take, I've never been truly depressed before today. I'm always so optimistic, even if I'm down i can think of the "at least, this means, one good thing is" scenarios.
I'm beyond that after this past week and a half. Every single think that could go wrong has. I'm exhausted from trying to think whats going to fall apart next!
I think i need a holiday. A new job, a new town and a new life.

Me and my little ray of sunshine.

Just cause i needed a cuddle
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