Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Betrayed

by my best friend. It hurts to know that when you trust someone with something that is so private, so hurtful and so intimate that they can in a moment of "emotion" blurt it all out to somebody else. To know that everything i shared, every hurt and every tear has potentially been spread to an outside party kills me.

I cannot fathom how after all the trust, the good times in one minute everything can be destroyed. I've lost faith in my best friend. And i dont understand how in the moment where i was upset, asking how it could have happened she had the nerve to tell me it was because "you know how emotional i am.."

Im so confused, but more than that im so so very angry and disapointed.

1 comment:

Papillon said...

I said how emotional I was...do you remember a couple of months ago when I said that I felt like I was finally waking up, that everyting before that was a blur. I meant that. I'm not trying to use it as an excuse because the hurt i have obviously caused must be deep and for that I am truely sorry. You are my best friend and as hollow as it may sound right now I love you. But I also meant it when I said I honestly couldn't remember saying anything...again no excuse and you can choose to believe me or not. I obviously must have said something, but I honestly can't remember. I hope one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me because I truely am sorry.