I feel like its been forever

but its only been 5 years. I can't believe its only been 5 years. When i met Matt I had sworn off guys 6 months earlier. I was tired of always being the one invested in the relationship, of having my heart broken, of guys wanting one thing but saying another. In short, I was hurt and rejected and in pieces. So I decided that IF God had a man out there for me, he would find me. I made a commitment to myself that I would stop looking for a relationship, and that even if the opportunity presented its-self to me, that I would guard my heart and make sure that it was something I wanted to pursue.

I should add here that I had never ever ever chased a guy before, not actively, and I had never disregarded any one's feelings while chasing a relationship.

And then my best friend at the time, introduced me to this amazing, charming, sweet man. And i instantly knew that If i wanted to try and get to know this man better, I would have to chase him. And i would have to be selfish. Because my best friend was interested in him too.

And a week later, we started dating. But we met, for the very first time, on the 11th January 2004. And even then, I started to love him.

Matt you are the most incredible man I have ever met.We've been through so much together, and despite all the ways I have tried to sabotage our relationship, our friendship and our marriage over the years, you have never once stopped telling me its OK, and that we could do it. You never once stopped loving me, doubted me or gave up on me. You are my miracle. And I couldn't have survived these past few years without you. I love you with all of my heart, and all of my soul. You are one of a kind.You make every day a new day and you make me laugh, you are amazing.