for who I am now.
It might shock people to know, that the person I was two years ago doesn't exist anymore. It might shock those same people to know that I actually am not as predictable as you might like to believe, I don't feel the way I used to, nor do I tolerate what I used to.
" I never expected to be this version of myself".
I think that sums it up nicely.
Some things are the same. I'm an awesome friend to have. I know that. If I'm in your corner, you know it. I stick up for my friends, I treat them well, I care about them, I support them. If I'm not in your corner, look out. I don't tolerate fools. I can't stand idiots. I hate hypocricy. And liars. I hate when people don't accept responsibility for their actions, and when they try and lie their way out of a situation.
The worst thing you can do to me, Is betray me again, after I've already forgiven you. This guy, managed a second chance, and suprise suprise, screwed me over again. It was my own fault for being so stupid, so young, and naive.
The fact of life is that if you live it fully, as I do, you're going to get hurt.
I never thought I could survive, the death of a child. That a baby could be born, and die in four short days, and that I could not only survive it, but live life through it, was unfathomable.
I like to think, that I have experienced the highest highs, and the lowest lows in my 24 short years on this earth. I have lived my life. I have lived it fully. There is nothing that I sit back and say "I wish I could do.." Because my life Is full.
Perhaps I am foolish to believe that I've been thrown the worst things I can think of, and managed to live through them. Maybe I am still naive.
I am better. I am a better version of what I was. I am a better version of who I was. I am better.
But those that can't accept that, friends or foe, need to move on.
Because part of my better? Is that I just don't care anymore.